Twenty-one years... That's a long time. Almost 1/4 of a century. When I look back, I can't say I really have much or anything to complain about. I have had a really great and privileged life for the most part. However I definitely can't say that if I died tomorrow I would be at peace with it. I am still young and I have a lot, A LOT, that I still want to accomplish with this time I have. I think the 20s is a time when people really should be doing a lot of self reflection and figuring out what it is they want in their life and who they are. This is the time when I should really be living and experiencing as much as I can. I think I've changed a lot even just in this year. Like, I used to be 100% against the idea of ever having children and even doubtful of that thought that I might even ever get married. But a lot has changed and the idea of having children isn't so sickening and the thought of marriage is definitely a possibility that I could live with. However neither of them will happen for a very long time, believe me. Before I get any of that done, especially having children, I really need to sort my own life out which may take a very long time. But there are other things in my life which have changed and I think I may have changed as a person. I'm not really sure how but I think I must have changed. You know I'm not really one to notice change in myself. As much as I like to self reflect, I just don't notice these things. One thing I've noticed about myself is that I've started to think a lot about how I take care of my body. I mean, it's the only one I get and the quality of my life relies so heavily on it so I really believe I need to take really good care of it while I'm young so I can live a good, healthy life in the long run. That's something I never used to worry about when I was younger. In fact, my mind set would be, "meh, I'm young. My body can take it. I'll just take care of it all when I'm older." but when I'm older it will be so much harder to take good care of my body so I need to get ahead while I'm young so I won't have to work so hard and alter my lifestyle so much when I'm older.
Anyway, those types of thoughts lead quite far into the future. Those are the types of thoughts I tend to think, though. But the thing about thinking like that is you don't know what the circumstances will be far down the road. With the way the world is functioning now everything is so unpredictable. Like, North Korea is hearing rumors that South Korea tried to send someone in to assassinate Kim Jung Il... now... that is a really uncomfortable thought for me. I have been hoping and praying (yes, praying) that nothing crazy will happen in either Koreas for the next two years so any hint of hostility with North Korea instantly sets me on edge. I'm hoping that, because Minguk is going to be in the US military, he won't really get involved in anything involving North and South Korea but he's still there and I still worry and America is so, so, SO good at getting up in other country's businesses. I hope that the rumors just stay rumors and it all gets cleared up. I've said this before and I'll say it again: I hate that stupid military law in Korea.
Whoo, I've jumped around quite a bit in this entry. Sorry about this and this is kind of long.
Some extra thoughts, though - the snow.
The snow! It's amazing but at the same time I hate it because it's keeping my Megan away from me and I do hate being away from my Megan. It is beautiful, though. Especially when it's falling. It was great playing with my dogs in the snow.
1 comment:
I like your self reflections... and I like that you self reflect :) You're right... your twenties is a time for figuring out what you want in life... but it certainly takes a while! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
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