A survey before I go and do something productive...

1)Are you really ready for 100 questions?
Yes! Let's get this time wasting party started!

2) Was your last relationship a mistake?
The one that I'm not currently in... yeah.

3) Do you believe in God?
Maybe not the same god that Christians believe in.

4) Who did you last say "I love you" to?
Uuuh.... my mom probably.

5) Do you regret it?
Of course not

6) Have you ever been depressed?
lol yeah

7) Do you have a best friend?
A couple :3

8) Are you a boy or girl?
What do you think?

9) What is your relationship status?
In a relationship with Minguk Lee.

10) How do you want to die?
Heroin overdose on my death bed. Or in an epic gun battle.

11) What did you last eat?
Sour Patch Kids

12) When was your last non-physical fight?
I can't remember

13) Do you have an attitude?
Yeah sometimes. I used to be pretty bad when I was younger, though. I think I've calmed down considerably these days, though.

14) Ever been in love?
Yes

15) What is your real name?
Awesome McCoolpants

16) Do you hate anyone at the moment?
Not really.

17) Do you miss someone?
Yes.

18) Twirl or cut your spaghetti?
Twirl!

19) Do you tan a lot?
I don't GO tanning but if I'm out in the sun a lot then I will tan.

20) Have any pets?
Two doggies!

21) How exactly are you feeling?
I kind of regret eating so many sour patch kids because my stomach feels a little funny and my tongue hurts. But otherwise I'm just peachy.

22) Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving?
Um... yes?

23) Ever made out in the bathroom?
Uuuh... yeah. Now that I think about it.

24) Would you take any of your exes back?
All one? No. Never.

25) Are you scared of spiders?
More creeped out than scared. I'm afraid of them crawling into my mouth as I sleep.

26) Would you go back in time if you could.
Maybe. Depends on what time.

27) Do you regret anything in your past?
Of course. But I like to try to take them as life lessons and not dwell on them and depress myself.

28) What are your plans for this weekend?
Hmm... well I think Lisa and Grace are coming up on Saturday so I guess I might hang out with them if they'll let me. Then probably drawing and dicking around on the computer and sleeping and stuuuuffffff.

29) Do you want to have kids?
Not right now but maybe in the future once I get all of my own shit together (which may be never).

30) Ever kissed somebody that name starts with an M?
TWO! WHOA!!!!

31) Do you type fast?
Fast but not accurate!

32) Do you have piercings?
I let the ones in my ears fill back in but I kind of want to get them repierced... but I probably won't.

33) Want any more?
I would like to get my lip pierced but A. Might not be good for a teaching job later on down the road B. It fucks up your teeth C. I don't want to pay for expensive fancy metal D. I hear they get infected pretty easily.

34) Can you spell well?
Somewhat.

35) Do you miss anyone from your past?
Yeah but it's been so long now. Our lives are so different and I doubt we will cross paths any time soon. But it's nice to reminisce about them.

36) What are you craving right now?
I'm not really hungry now. But I'm looking forward for this tea to cool so I can drink it and soothe my tummy.

37) Ever been to a bonfire party?
A party specifically for a bonfire...? No.

38) Have you ever been on a horse?
Yeah twice. And they both shat when I sat on them. D:

39) Kissed someone in a truck?
In a big shitty SUV, yes. Truck, no.

40) Have you ever broken someone's heart?
Lisa says I have but I don't really think I truly have broken anyone's heart.

41) Have you ever been cheated on?
Not to my knowledge.

42) Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
I think I made Brandon cry a little when I broke up with him. I almost laughed at him but I'm not that cold hearted of a bitch. Other than that, I don't think so.

43) Would you live with someone without marrying them?
Yeah I think that's the best idea. It's like a trial period.

44) What should you be doing?
Reading

45) What's irritating you right now?
The nagging voice in my head that's telling me to either study something or read something.

46) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt?
Oh yes.

47) Does somebody love you besides family?
I hope so!

48) What is your favorite color?
Green and black

49) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
I have taken off my shirt in a vehicle because it was so effing hot.

50) Have you ever shaved in the kitchen sink?
Gross.

51) Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
Yes. My parents are awesome.

52) Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you?
I hope not.

53) Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Uuummmmmmmmm...... Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhh........ I can't even remember.

54) Do you give out second chances too easily?
I haven't really had the option of giving people second chances. But I like to think I'm pretty forgiving.

55) Is it easier to forgive or forget?
It's easier to forgive for me. I always have haunting thoughts of whatever. I even still think of stuff that's happeend when I was really, really young.

56) Is this year the best year of your life?
I'm going to have to go and say it's pretty high up there. More awesome friend time would have been nice, though.

57) What was your child hood nickname?
*shudders* Nasty. WHICH I CAN'T BELIEVE LISA TOLD MINGUK ABOUT, YOU JERK!

58) Have you ever walked outside completely naked?
*makes a face* No!

59) Do you think you' re a good person?
Sometimes.

60) Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
I don't think there's really a set path but I think you can take everything which happens as happening for a reason... if that helps you cope with ever shit goes on in your life.

61) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Did my pre-bed routine of brushing my teeth and crunches/leg exercises and put lotion on.

62) Is there anyone you wish was still in your life? Who?
I guess some friends from high school... but... not really....

63) What is bothering you?
The carpet under my chair that keeps getting caught on the leg whenever I push it out to stand up. GAH

64) Have you ever been out of state province?
I LIVE IN AMURICA.

65) Are you listening to music right now?
Yes, Muse.

66) Do you like Chinese food?
Yeeeaaaaahhhhhhhh..... Yum.

67) Do you know your fathers b-day?
Yep. January 31st.

68) Are you afraid of the dark?
When I'm alone and not tired enough to go to sleep quickly, yes.

69) Is cheating ever okay?
When you cheat you're only cheating yourself. heh...

70) Are you mean?
Sometimes.

71) Can you keep white shoes clean?
No. DX

72) Have you noticed this survey stopped getting personal?
Not really. But I have been noticing that those personal questions all have to do with "exes" and some people don't have exes to be had.

73) Do you believe in true love?
Of course~

74) Do you like the outside?
Very much.

75) Are you currently bored?
Yes! And I have things to do but no drive to do them!

76) Do you wanna get married?
Sure. Not any time soon, though.

77) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
Not really. I prefer more personal nicknames. Or no nicknames at all.

78) Are you hungry?
No.

79) Do you have a bank account?
Nope, I'm five years old. Fuck, of course I do.

80) What makes you happy?
Lots of things. My friends, family, boyfriend, thinking of all three of those, a drawing I'm proud of, a good TV show, good music, good food, good beverage, relaxing, sunny days... the list goes on.

81) Would you change your name?
No. I used to hate it because no one could pronounce it but now I've realized that if someone can't pronounce it after me repeating it five times then they're just a twat and my name is cool.

82) Ever been to Alaska?
Noooooo

83) Do you watch the news?
Sometimes but not often.

84) What' s your zodiac sign?
Sagittarius. The cool one.

85) Do you like Subway?
You mean do I like soggy sandwiches with shitty lettuce and hardly anything on them? No.

86) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?
That person probably being one of my parents so... yeah it would because they're about two hours away from me right now.

87) Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
Feel really awkward.

88) Do you like your friends?
No. They're fucking losers. JK. ILU, friendsies!

89) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them?
Almost every time I see someone I'm not super!awesome friends with, yes. I hate stupid, awkward small talk.

90) Who is the last guy you talked to?
Er, uh... Mark? On the google talk.

91) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
Yes. I wouldn't break up with him or anything but I'd really rather prefer it if he didn't. And he would have to wash his mouth out with listerine every time after he smoked.

92) What's going on between you and your best friend?
I think we're all pretty fine and dandy and working hard(?) on our school work. I'm super excited to see you guys this winter break! I miss yooouuu!!!

93) Who's the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Probably Megan because she's the only person I have deep conversations with (even if they're not all that deep).

94) Have you ever regretted letting someone go?
No.

95) Do you enjoy piercings & tattoos?
As long as they're tasteful

96) What do you wear more: jeans, sweats, or shorts?
Jeans

97) You're a Sharpie marker, what color are you?
Black. Not because of my soul (which, yes, is a black abyss) but because it's the most practical.

98) Do you prefer to shower at night or in the morning?
In the morning because it helps me wake up.

99) Have you ever said you'd never love again?
No. That's a stupid thing to say.

100) Do you want to please everyone?
You can't please everyone. I want to please the people I love and who love me.

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Finished it a couple of days ago.

Time to go do something productive now.

Quizzes and Thanksgiving and stuff

Your rainbow is intensely shaded white, green, and violet.

What is says about you: You are a contemplative person. You feel strong ties to nature and your mood changes with its cycles. Those around you admire your fresh outlook and vitality. You are patient and will keep trying to understand something until you've mastered it.

Find the colors of your rainbow at spacefem.com.

This Thanksgiving was pretty different from most of the Thanksgivings I'm used to. We just had a Thanksgiving with the four of us and the Miner family (close family friends) and, of course, my Halmony. We had a very delicious meal with a prime rib as the entree. As far as Thanksgivings go, it didn't really seem very Thanksgiving-y to me. Not that I'm complaining. I like just being able to spend time with people I like, whether it's a holiday or not. I did think about what I am thankful for, though. Like the fact that we have such amazing food to put on the table and that, at least at the moment and hopefully not for a very long time, I won't have to worry about whether or not I will be able to put foo don the table. I have amazing friends and family and the best boyfriend I could hope for (even if I can't even talk to him on the phone for another few weeks). I guess, like Megan's cousin, I am thankful for being able to have hope for the future. Anyway, it was a good Thanksgiving.

Yesterday Lisa, Kory and I went hiking which was fun. I was having a really good time until we realized that they lied to us and it seriously COULD NOT have been just a 4 mile hike up. I don't know what was going on there. It seemed like it took forever. I was getting pretty frustrated/bored though. I don't even really regret turning back prematurely. I was so wet, frozen and tired by that time that I just wanted to get the fuck back down to the starting point. The mountain will be there some other time and then I'll be ready and prepared for how long it truly is. THE MOUNTAIN WILL BE DEFEATED!

Anyway, I'm crazy tired.

Here's a digital painting I did a week or so ago. (click)

Life and things and stuff

I feel like I should make an update of my life other than the fact that I don't have money. Well, I do have money, I just don't have money to buy the things I want anymore. Which I guess is OK. There's no reason to be frivolous. But no new computer for me for a few more months. :(

Anyway, other than that not much has happened. Lisa is over from Korea and she stayed with me for about five days which was cool. It was nice to have someone to hang out with other than the usual Ainsley and Sara and Justine. I haven't been in the best mood, lately, though so I feel like I probably wasn't as nice to Lisa as I should have been... :/ I'm probably never as nice to people as I should be, haha. I'm just a mean person, I guess. ^^;

Diana's big 2-1 was on Saturday (though we celebrated on Friday) and it was really cool to get together with some of my most favorite people and celebrate with her! It's a big step, I feel. Although it's just another year older... being alive for 21 years is kind of a lot. I mean, it's not old, but a lot sure has happened in 21 years, haha. So congratulations to Diana for surviving this long! Let's hope there are much more than 21 years to come.

Other than that stuff not much has really changed about my life since the last time I made a real post. Oh, I drew a picture a while ago that I didn't put up.

I've been kind of in an art slump lately, though. I want to draw but I either don't have time or inspiration or both. Bah. School. I've pretty much just been studying and reading and sleeping. I can't wait until this quarter is over. Then at least next quarter all of my homework will probably be something art related... which I may or may not hate. We'll see.

Anyway, this smelly kid needs to go take a shower.

P.S. Here is a picture of Johnny Depp as the Mad Hatter in Tim Burton's "Alice in Wonderland" I'm not really sure how I feel about it yet. It's definitely Tim Burton-y but it kind of looks... well... transvestite. But whatever. It might not be a final decision of his costume. Plus, Johnny Depp can definitely pull it off, I think. But I'm really looking forward to the movie. ^^ I think Alan (Allen?) Rickman is playing the caterpillar. ^^

24-hours...?

I did attempt to participate in 24-hour comic marathon, and I held in there for about 13 hours, making 11 pages. But then I realized that I had work to do that needed to be done for school and I couldn't waste my brain away on a shitty comic when I had to use it for school work. I think "shitty comic" might sound a little harsh but you haven't seen it. I actually like the story which is why it was so hard for me to keep on doing shitty page after shitty page. I couldn't let go and accept the fact that this is a 24-hour comic and it's SUPPOSED to look like crap. But I guess my value for quality outweighs my value for... whatever the hell it is that a 24-hour comic marathon is supposed to represent. Maybe some time when I don't have school I will do a real 24-hour comic. But we'll see. Staying up that whole time really wasn't hard. Though I quit 13 hours in I still stayed up with Ainsley and watched Little Nemo and did homework and worked a little on the comic. So it wasn't hard at all to stay up. I just got frustrated with the fact that the pages looked like shit and shit isn't how I want my art to be portrayed. Sure, Ainsley gave me lip about quitting early and called me a quitter (which is one of several things that really piss me off) but I just ignored her and said that I just can't handle having my art look that shitty and she said, "Well I can let go and accept it." and I just said, "I cant." and we left it at that. But, all-in-all, it was pretty fun. I like being able to just draw all day while watching The Office and a myriad of movies.

The end of October is nearing. Uuugh... I've never been mixed with such feelings before. At one end of the spectrum, I'm ecstatic for Lisa to come back to the US and visit with us for a while! I miss my big sister. But at the far darker side of the spectrum, the beginning of November also brings the cold, cruel fact that Minguk is going to the military and I won't be able to even e-mail him for months and that makes my heart really sad. I mean, it's already hard enough having a boyfriend who is a whole ocean away, even with e-mail and skype... So the two strong feelings have left me with a sort of non-feeling. So... there it is.

I haven't eaten yet today... DX My entire eating schedule has been effed up because of last night.

I LIKE When you Sleep when YOU sleep next to Me.

Aah... Drew this last night because I'm a cheeseball. Just now threw some colors on in the photoshop. bahahaha...