New haircut ㅜㅜ

LOL. WEAR! NOT WHERE. STUPID.

Seriously... the only reasons why I'm not actually upset about this is because A. it was free and B. my hair grows crazy fast so it'll be a proper set of bangs in like a week or so. But in the mean time I'll be staring at the sidewalk a lot...

The real kicker is that I got it at Studio One Twelve. That last time I went there they did a really amazing job on me. But it wasn't the same hairdresser... at least she was super nice, though.

Ha-Ha-Halloween

I'm going to spend this Halloween chilling with my parents and probably watching really bad movies with my dad. I'm pretty excited. For some reason, I've been missing my parents like crazy these past couple of weeks. I don't really know why. Maybe it's kind of similar to Megan's homesickness thing... except my guy is all the way in Korea so I kind of feel like, for some reason, spending time with my parents brings me closer to him...? I just want to spend time with people who love me. Also, I hardly got to see my parents over the summer which, while my summer was amazing, was a bummer. Speaking of bad movies, I just got (got..ish) Dead Alive, which I heard last year from a pretty reliable source that it was a riot. It's directed by Peter Jackson and is apparently an amazing B-movie about zombies. Just my type of flick. I've heard of it a bunch before but never bothered watching it but I just found it on DC so I think I'll watch it after I finish this here pooost. Despite my passion for zombie movies, I haven't seen many, which makes me feel kind of like a poseur... but whatever. I love zombie movies, I just haven't seen them all.

Mahmahmahmaaahh....

Last night I took Mark and Ryan to get the midnight release of Fallout 3. I was like one of three females there and one of them was some kid's mom, haha... I've never played it or even seen it played... I don't even really know what it's about, but Mark was pretty ecstatic about it so I'm guessing it must be pretty good. In exchange for giving him and Ryan a ride to GameStop last night, I get to watch Mark play it some time... my proposition of this agreement seemed to catch Mark somewhat off track since I guess no one has ever said that they wanted to watch him play a game before, but I really enjoy watching people play games (Reason number 985 why I miss Korea (watching Ste play games)).

Anyway anyway anyway...

That is all...

24-hours...?

I did attempt to participate in 24-hour comic marathon, and I held in there for about 13 hours, making 11 pages. But then I realized that I had work to do that needed to be done for school and I couldn't waste my brain away on a shitty comic when I had to use it for school work. I think "shitty comic" might sound a little harsh but you haven't seen it. I actually like the story which is why it was so hard for me to keep on doing shitty page after shitty page. I couldn't let go and accept the fact that this is a 24-hour comic and it's SUPPOSED to look like crap. But I guess my value for quality outweighs my value for... whatever the hell it is that a 24-hour comic marathon is supposed to represent. Maybe some time when I don't have school I will do a real 24-hour comic. But we'll see. Staying up that whole time really wasn't hard. Though I quit 13 hours in I still stayed up with Ainsley and watched Little Nemo and did homework and worked a little on the comic. So it wasn't hard at all to stay up. I just got frustrated with the fact that the pages looked like shit and shit isn't how I want my art to be portrayed. Sure, Ainsley gave me lip about quitting early and called me a quitter (which is one of several things that really piss me off) but I just ignored her and said that I just can't handle having my art look that shitty and she said, "Well I can let go and accept it." and I just said, "I cant." and we left it at that. But, all-in-all, it was pretty fun. I like being able to just draw all day while watching The Office and a myriad of movies.

The end of October is nearing. Uuugh... I've never been mixed with such feelings before. At one end of the spectrum, I'm ecstatic for Lisa to come back to the US and visit with us for a while! I miss my big sister. But at the far darker side of the spectrum, the beginning of November also brings the cold, cruel fact that Minguk is going to the military and I won't be able to even e-mail him for months and that makes my heart really sad. I mean, it's already hard enough having a boyfriend who is a whole ocean away, even with e-mail and skype... So the two strong feelings have left me with a sort of non-feeling. So... there it is.

I haven't eaten yet today... DX My entire eating schedule has been effed up because of last night.

HI-YA!!!

Aah... I drew this a couple days ago and colored it yesterday.

Yesterday I was really sick. I was so miserable. But today I'm pretty much back to my old self, if not just even more fatigued and sniffly... more than usual, that is.

TOMORROW... I am participating in 24 hour comic day. It was technically last weekend but I had some super awesome people over last weekend so it will have to be this weekend instead. I've never done it before and I only have kind of an idea of what I"m going to do. A general idea. So we'll see where that takes me. Hopefully it won't just be a big, fat waste of time and I won't end up killing myself on the 23rd hour. So wish me luck, guys! Saturday will be a fun, voluntary type of torture but Sunday is where the real torture begins when I'll have to do all my homework and studying that I neglected to do. Good times.... But I've got boxes of tea, a bunch of coffee and rice. So I think I'm set. Wish me luck!

If I don't make it, tell my family I love 'em.

And finally...

you are ghostwhite #F8F8FF

Your dominant hue is blue, making you a good friend who people love and trust. You're good in social situations and want to fit in. Just be careful not to compromise who you are to make them happy. Your saturation level is very low - you have better things to do than jump headfirst into every little project. You make sure your actions are going to really accomplish something before you start because you hate wasting energy making everyone else think you're working. Your outlook on life is very bright. You are sunny and optimistic about life and others find it very encouraging, but remember to tone it down if you sense irritation.

the spacefem.com html color quiz

Survey!

Because I'm waiting to get the urge to draw again... it's coming... (Stolen from Megan)

1.My grandpa once: proposed to my grandma on their first date. hehehe
2.Never in my life have I: smoked the dope.
3. When I was younger, I: talked a lot.
4.High school was: eh...
5.When I'm nervous: I shake.
6.The last time I really cried was: my first night back in America. lol...
7.If I were to get married right now: I would not be Nastasya.
8.My hair is: sometimes black, sometimes brown, sometimes red...?
9.My feet are: feet. Blegh.
10.When I was 5: I was 15 years younger than I am now (I seriously can't remember anything from when I was 5...)
11.Last Christmas: was my first Christmas without Lisa!!!
12.When I turn my head left: I look into my closet.
13.When I turn my head right: I see my bed and Ainsley's bed
14.My life is not complete without: your looo~~~oooove~~~
15.By this time next year: hopefully I'll be in an apartment with two less roomies.
16.I have a hard time understanding: why people think Palin is hawt.
17.One time at a family gathering: I split my pants. DX
18.Take my advice: don't start a relationship without knowing the person first.
19.My ideal breakfast is: cheerios + pumpkin granola + milk
20.If you visit my hometown: probably won't have that much fun.
21.My friends are: the coolest
22.If you spend the night at my house: you can sleep in Lisa's bed! :D
23.I would stop my wedding if: what's with the wedding questions? but I suppose I would stop my wedding if my fiance cheated on me. *ditto*
24.The world could do without: war, hate, asian ghosts and mosquitoes
25.I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than: lick poop...?
26.The most recent thing I've bought myself is: PHO!
27.And, by the way: don't fill your mug to the top with scalding hot tea because you WILL spill all over yourself.
28.The last time I was high: was never.
29.In the past I shouldn't have been: so shy... I guess...
30.Once, at a bar/club: I got in a bar fight and came out with only on leg and half of my fingers missing. But you should have seen the other guy.
31.Last night, I: drew, wrote Minguk and e-mail and went to sleep.
32.If I didn't have any obligations tomorrow: oh wait, I don't. hahahaha
33. A better name for me would be: I think Nastasya is fine...
34.In the last 6 months: some extremely good things have entered my life.
35.If I ever go back to school: after I graduate university for the first time, I will be going back to get a masters in either illustration/fine art or sequential art
36.I bet you didn't know: oh shit, I just spilled water ALL OVER myself. hahahaha. Winner is my name, winning at life is my game.
37.I am: wet. WoooOOooooooOOOOOooooo...... I know. I meant that to by racy.
38.I read: books about fucked up kids and their fucked up lives
39.Every birthday: I get a year older, and a year wiser.
40.I regret: a few things, but at the same time I have taken those regrets and turned them into life lessons.


Uuuh.. I don't feel like drawing yet so here's another survey...

A: What accessories do you wear everyday? The ring that Lisa gave me, my watch and the necklace that Minguk gave me

B: What is your beauty routine? Take a shower... put some clothes on.

C: What was the last item of clothing (for yourself) that you purchased? My Mek jeans.

D: Do you use a dresser, closet, or both? Both

E: What type of earrings are in your ears right now? My ears aren't pierced anymore. TT__TT

F: What type of figure do you have? ... Womanly... lol...

G: Do you wear glasses? Yesss

H: What type of handbag do you carry? Uuh, a brown one from Japan and I use my Coach bag sometimes..

I: What is your ideal style? I dunno... I liked layers and detail... but I don't really dress like that. I just dress comfortably (Stacy and Clinton would be ashamed)

J: What jewelry are you wearing right now? the Lisa ring and the Minguk necklace

K: Do you wear knee-hi stockings? lol no

L: Do you *have* to wear matching lingerie? I don't even own any matching sets.

M: Do you wear makeup? No. I almost bought some today but I didn't know what kind I should get or what type of shade. I'm completely helpless...

N: Do you wear nightgowns? Yeah, when I was like 10...

O: What outerwear do you put on when going out on a typical winters day? My NorthFace jacket and Puma boots... probably a sweatshirt under my jacket and maybe two layers of pants.

P: What is your favorite perfume? The Jeju island perfume that Minguk gave me... hehehe.... whenever I put it on a very small part of my thinks I'm putting on penis essence or something. hahaha... Oh you'd have to know Jeju island to get it I guess...

Q: Is your motto "quality over quantity" when it comes to clothing and accessories? Yes

R: Do you wear rain boots? No, I wear... I guess snow boots?

S: Do you wear socks or slippers when your feet get cold? Usually just socks because my slippers kind of get in the way.

T: Do you have a set of travel luggage? No, I just use my mom's.

U: What is your daily uniform? Jeans and some kind of shirt and a jacket, sweater or sweatshirt

V: If you are married, did you wear a veil with your wedding dress? If not, how did you do your hair? XXXXXXX

W: Do you wear a watch? Yes. But not if I'm in my apartment - I don't need it.

X: What item of clothing always makes you feel extremely beautiful? Uuh... I never really feel beautiful. If I'm wearing fancy clothes I just feel awkward.

Y: What is your favorite type of yarn? ... what?

Z: Do you prefer zippers or buttons? Depends on what they're on.

OK. I think I can go draw now.

I LIKE When you Sleep when YOU sleep next to Me.

Aah... Drew this last night because I'm a cheeseball. Just now threw some colors on in the photoshop. bahahaha...

Oh! Fun, fun, fun times.

Yesterday was the usual humdrum day. Got up, went to school, came home, read, went back to school, came home.

After I got home for the last time I picked Calum up from his house and Chris met us there. We went to the liquor store and Calum went in a got me some green apple vodka and vodka vodka. I was pretty excited. After that we went to my apartment and met up with Ainsley. After ambling around somewhat confusedly Ainsley and I decided to head over to Haggen to pick up some Martinelli's sparkling cider and taco things. As Ainsley made us dinner (TACO DINNER) we started playing a game called Screw the Dealer. It's a pretty good way to get drunk quickly. If anyone wants to play I'll gladly teach them. So, obviously, the whole Presidential Debate drinking game kind of went under the table. I think the whole deal was basically that Sara and Justine were actually watching the debate and not drinking so we just decided to sit in the little dining nook and play a game. After like 30 minutes of drinking I'm pretty sure we annoyed away Sara and Justine and they went out to get food and stayed out for like three hours. lol... They were more than welcome to join us but they just decided not to. Oh well. But it was a good, fun, wholesome night! We got done at about 8 because Calum and Emily were going to a concert and Chris still had to drive home so he couldn't stay and get too drunk.

After everyone left, Ainsley and I went to Haggen and bought junk (lol, I totally typed "drunk" at first) food. The chashier guy looked at what I was buying and was like, "Nice choice of snack food. " and I was like, "Oh yeah!" in my completely awkward and half-drunken way.

When we got back I wrote like a novel to Minguk. Not really. I think I've written longer, but still. It was pretty long. I just reread it today and it isn't actually that bad. I mean, except for the part in the very beginning of the e-mail where I say, "I'm really sorry, Minguk, but I'm kind of drunk right now." you never would have been able to tell that I was drunk. haha... Skills.

Now I've been listening to Hellogoodbye's "Here (In Your Arms)" like all day. So good. Especially the chorus. haha...

Ooh! Minguk called me and woke me up today. I can't remember what we talked about because I was still kind of asleep throughout the entire conversation but it was really nice to talk to him. I remember laughing a lot and trying to say "rural" (which is fucking hard to say). We talked about him going to the military soon and how both of us are pretty worried about his knee because of how badly he hurt it like a year ago and it still hurts sometimes these days. I'm really worried he'll put too much stress on his knee and hurt it so badly that he'll have to get serious surgery or have to use a cane or something. :( He said he'll try to go to the hospital but I dunno if there's really enough time to get it fixed and healed before he goes to boot camp. *sigh* I guess we'll just have to wait and see. No point in me worrying about it now...

Well you are the one, the one that lies close to me
Whisperes hello I miss you quite terribly
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms

P.S., Megan. I love you for talking to me last night. hahahaha

I'm tired, I'm out of things to do, but I want to keep listening to music...

So I'll do this thing and then after that hopefully I'll be satisfied.

Bold the ones that are true.
Italicize the ones that are sort of true.

GENERAL
▬ I am 5'4 or shorter.
▬ I think I'm ugly.
▬ have many scars. (Nothing really serious but they're there...)
▬ I tan easily.
▬ I wish my hair was a different color.
▬ I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
▬ I have a tattoo.
▬ I am self-conscious about my appearance.
▬ I have/had braces.
▬ I wear glasses.
▬ I'd get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free, scar-free.
▬ I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
▬ I have had more than two piercings.
▬ I have had piercings in places besides my ears.
▬ I have freckles. (They come and go with tans)

FAMILY/HOME LIFE
▬ I've sworn at my parents. (Not really aimed towards them...)
▬ I've run away from home.
▬ I've been kicked out of the house.
▬ My biological parents are together.
▬ I have a sibling less than one year old.
▬ I want to have kids someday. (It turns on and off)
▬ I have children.
▬ I've lost a child.

EMBARRASSMENT
▬ I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
▬ Disney movies still make me cry.
▬ I've snorted while laughing.
▬ I've laughed so hard I've cried.
▬ I've glued my hand to something.
▬ I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
▬ I've had my trousers rip in public. (In my uncle's backyard...)
▬ I've had stitches.
▬ I've broken a bone.
▬ I've had my tonsils removed.
▬ I've sat in a doctor's office with a friend. (Well... they were more with me...)
▬ I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
▬ I've had serious surgery.
▬ I've had chicken pox.

TRAVELING
▬ I've driven over 200 miles (1000km) in one day.
▬ I've been on a plane.
▬ I've been to North America.
▬ I've been to Niagara Falls.
▬ I've been to Japan.
▬ I've been to Europe.
▬ I've been to Africa.

EXPERIENCES
▬ I've been lost in my city. (give me a place where I HAVEN'T been lost)
▬ I've seen a shooting star.
▬ I've wished on a shooting star.
▬ I've seen a meteor shower.
▬ I've gone out in public in my pajamas. (To the end of the driveway...)
▬ I've pushed all the buttons in a lift.
▬ I've been to a casino.
▬ I've been skydiving.
▬ I've gone skinny dipping.
▬ I've played spin the bottle.
▬ I've crashed a car. (a car has crashed into me)
▬ I've been skiing.
▬ I've been in a play.
▬ I've met someone in person from the internet. (Not that I had really intended to)
▬ I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
▬ I've seen the northern lights.
▬ I've sat on a roof top at night.
▬ I've played chicken.
▬ I've seen the RHPS.
▬ I've eaten sushi.
▬ I've been snowboarding.

RELATIONSHIPS
▬ I'm single.
▬ I'm in a relationship.
▬ I'm available.
▬ I'm engaged.
▬ I'm married.
▬ I've gone on a blind date.
▬ I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
▬ I have a fear of abandonment.
▬ I've been divorced.
▬ I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back. (Well, I'm not really sure..)
▬ I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
▬ I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
▬ I've kept something from a past relationship.

SEXUALITY
▬ I've had a crush on someone of the same gender.
▬ I've kissed a member of the same gender.
▬ I've had sex with someone of the opposite gender.
▬ I've had sex with someone of the same gender.
▬ I've had sex with more than one person at the same time.
▬ I am a cuddler.
▬ I've been kissed in the rain.
▬ I've had sex outdoors.
▬ I've hugged a stranger.
▬ I have kissed a stranger.
▬ I have had sex with a stranger. (LOL. No thanks)

HONESTY/CRIME
▬ I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
▬ I have lied to my parents about where I am. (I can't really remember, but this is probably true)
▬ I am keeping a secret from the world. (I'M A MAN.)
▬ I've cheated while playing a video game.
▬ I've cheated on a test. (I intended on cheating but none of my answers were on the test...)
▬ I've driven through a red light. (Whoops...)
▬ I've been suspended from school.
▬ I've witnessed a crime.
▬ I've been in a fist fight.
▬ I've been arrested.
▬ I've shoplifted.

DRUGS/ALCOHOL
▬ I've consumed alcohol.
▬ I have/do smoke cigarettes.
▬ I have/do smoke pot.
▬ I regularly drink.
▬ I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
▬ I take cough medication when I'm not sick.
▬ I've done hard drugs.
▬ I've been addicted to an illegal substance.
▬ I can't swallow pills.
▬ I can swallow about five pills at a time no problem.

RANDOM
▬ I can sing well.
▬ I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
▬ I open up to others too easily.
▬ I watch the news. (Only if I planned on watching it)
▬ I don't kill bugs. (I try not to...)
▬ I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for sake of being able to rhyme.
▬ I fucking swear regularly.
▬ I sing in the shower.
▬ I am a morning person.
▬ I paid for my mobile phone ring tone.
▬ I'm a snob about grammar.
▬ I am a sports fanatic.
▬ I play with my hair.
▬ I have/had "x"s in my screen name.
▬ I love being neat.
▬ I love spam.
▬ I've copied more than 30 cds in a day.
▬ I bake well.
▬ My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
▬ I don't know how to shoot a gun. (I know BBs...)
▬ I am in love with love.
▬ I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
▬ I laugh at my own jokes.
▬ I eat fast food weekly.
▬ I believe in ghosts.
▬ I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
▬ I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
▬ I am really ticklish.
▬ I love white chocolate.
▬ I bite my nails.
▬ I play video games.
▬ I'm good at remembering faces.
▬ I'm good at remembering names.
▬ I'm good at remembering dates.
▬ I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
▬ My answers are totally honest.

I have been listening to Whitney Houston's "I Will Always Love You" like all day and it's put me into a really sentimental mood... haha. ^^;;

Today I met up with a friend who I never get to see but always like to hang out with. It was cool catching up and stuff. We like pretty much the same exact things so we can talk for hours. I'm sad I don't get to see her very much but we're both pretty busy (well, she is busy a lot more than I am). But hopefully this year we will be able to see more of each other. I've known her since like my freshman year but we've hung out only a handful of times since then... but whenever we get together we can talk so easily. It's a nice little friendship.

Anyway, I'd better get to bed. I have to wake up bright and early tomorrow!!! DX

Commenting...

I just figured out how to make it so that anyone can comment on my blog (even if you don't have one). So... there.

Hot Tea on a Rainy Day :)

Today is the first actual rainy day I've experienced in Washington since I got back from Korea. I loved the sunny, warm weather but having lived in Washington for... oh... about 13 years... I couldn't completely feel like I was really back home in Washington until today. It's nice to be back. ^^

I still haven't gotten my computer fixed. I went to that NW Computer Service center yesterday only to find that it wasn't actually there... so I put a post on the WWU livejournal community asking people if they had any other recommendations on computer repair shops and this guy told me to go to Geek Squad. I totally spaced on Geek Squad. So I think after I get back from school later this evening I will head over there and see what can be done about my laptop. I really just want to buy a new computer, though. I was surfing around on the Dell website and it was so tempting to put an order in, especially since I got more money from the loan people than I usually do so I feel like I'm rolling in cash. I really need to learn how to spend my money wisely, though. Haha... *totally didn't just buy a pair of $100 shoes...* >.>;; I needed them! DON'T JUDGE ME!

But other than that, not a whole lot has been happening. I think this weekend will be good, though. At least I hope. Apparently I'm going to a party some time this weekend and we're going to watch Kung Fu Hustle (which, supposedly, I can't be my friends' friend until I've seen it). So that will be fun, I hope. Aaah... yeah.

Excuse me but I'm going to be a little cheesy right now.

I'm sure some people who read this will be able to relate, especially those in long-distance relationships. Those who can't relate, I hope, can at least understand where I'm coming from. But... since I've been in this relationship with Minguk and since I've had to force myself away from him in order to go to school, I pretty much spend all my time thinking about him. It's not like, "Oooh, Minguk. I miss you so much. Why can't I be with you right now this very second? I can't think of anything or anyone but you." I mean, it's like that sometimes but a lot of the time I'm constantly thinking about him but I can also think about and focus on other things. Like... I may be focusing on something else but he's always there in the back of my mind. Maybe that's what's keeping me sane, just knowing that he exists and constantly acknowledging that. Does anyone else experience that? Maybe not about a boyfriend or girlfriend necessarily but just something that's always comforting to have in the back of your mind? Maybe that sort of thinking is more thinking with your heart and not so much your mind...? lol... that was way too cheesy. I'm sorry. But... thinking about him constantly like that example I gave before would be really unhealthy, I think. I mean, I'm thinking about him now with most of my focus and my heart keeps tugging at me and I wish he were near me so bad right now like sitting on my bed and saying something like, "Oh! How can you type so fast!?" or "I think it's lunchtime, let's eat." or something completely dull like that. But I can't think like that all the time or else I would go crazy because I know that he can't be here and I won't be able to actually be in his presence for nine months. So... that type of thinking - the thinking of him in the back of my mind - is really a sort of protection for me. It keeps me from going crazy in a couple ways I guess. It prevents me from thinking about him too little and forgetting about him and it keeps me from thinking about him too much and dying of lonliness. Anyway. That was probably really stupid and confusing and now you hate me. Sorry...